No really, with every fiber of my being. I am embarrassed and ashamed of my nationality almost all of the time. Not because I don't believe in what America could be, or what the idea of America could be, but because of what we are and what we are have done to the world. As a nation, as a governmental system, we embody everything I fight against and I am running out of will to defend us.
All my life I have been silenced with the quote, "My country, right or wrong." It's what they say every time a citizen questions the system. And by "they," I mean not just the government but regular citizens. People for whom I have immense respect but truely beleive that there is an honor in and a duty to believe "my country, right or wrong."
Interesting little fact:
Today I discovered that the full quote actually reads as follows:
"My country, right or wrong. Right, to keep it right, wrong to make it right."
Funny how that last part is allways omitted. God forbid we actually honor the true meaning of democracy.
I wish I had a voice.
I wish that,at 22, I were not already too cynical to harbor any hope for my country.
I wish I could "make it right."
I wish I could believe in America.